I Miss My Life!
Peace? Freedom?? Was our previous life peaceful and free?! No matter what it was, I wish I could live it again and I wonder if I can really live it again.
I wont complain about not having 24/24 electric power at home. I would love to drive in traffic jam in Beirut suburbs on a midsummer day. I wont curse or swear (silently) at the greedy drivers with their smoky cars. I wont mind driving in the alleys of the suburbs. I wont complain about the fuel prices as long as I can fill my car tank with gasoline anytime any where. I wont mind cleaning our beaches from dirt and garbage. I wont mind being asked What time are you coming back home? as long as I can go anywhere I want and enjoy with friends. I would wake up very early in the morning to be in school on time. I wont nag about working at weekends. I wont complain about having some naughty noisy lazy students in my class. I wont complain about the problems I face at work. I want my previous life back!
I miss Ali who used to make fun of anything around. I miss Amina who always wanted to be the first to answer any of my questions, even if she knew she might be wrong. I miss Mustafa, the chubby cute boy. I miss Hassan who used to say mith instead of miss. I miss Malak with her daily love letters. I miss Mohammed, Nermeen, Rami, Zeinab, Aisha, Nour, Natalie, Kareem, Haneen I miss all my students who may be homeless now or who may be trapped in their southern villages.
I miss looking at our sea not wondering where the warships might be. I miss meditating at our CLEAR skies. I miss watching boring news criticizing this politician or that.
Its now that I appreciate and long for my previous life that I had no idea it would ever end this way. Such a big nagger I was. I didnt realize the bright side of my life. Its now that Im aware of what I missed... and its just now that I call it peaceful and free life it will take years to have it back. We wont forget what we passed through, we wont let go our rage and wrath.
I wont complain about not having 24/24 electric power at home. I would love to drive in traffic jam in Beirut suburbs on a midsummer day. I wont curse or swear (silently) at the greedy drivers with their smoky cars. I wont mind driving in the alleys of the suburbs. I wont complain about the fuel prices as long as I can fill my car tank with gasoline anytime any where. I wont mind cleaning our beaches from dirt and garbage. I wont mind being asked What time are you coming back home? as long as I can go anywhere I want and enjoy with friends. I would wake up very early in the morning to be in school on time. I wont nag about working at weekends. I wont complain about having some naughty noisy lazy students in my class. I wont complain about the problems I face at work. I want my previous life back!
I miss Ali who used to make fun of anything around. I miss Amina who always wanted to be the first to answer any of my questions, even if she knew she might be wrong. I miss Mustafa, the chubby cute boy. I miss Hassan who used to say mith instead of miss. I miss Malak with her daily love letters. I miss Mohammed, Nermeen, Rami, Zeinab, Aisha, Nour, Natalie, Kareem, Haneen I miss all my students who may be homeless now or who may be trapped in their southern villages.
I miss looking at our sea not wondering where the warships might be. I miss meditating at our CLEAR skies. I miss watching boring news criticizing this politician or that.
Its now that I appreciate and long for my previous life that I had no idea it would ever end this way. Such a big nagger I was. I didnt realize the bright side of my life. Its now that Im aware of what I missed... and its just now that I call it peaceful and free life it will take years to have it back. We wont forget what we passed through, we wont let go our rage and wrath.
posted by blacknblue me at 4:50 AM
8 Comments:
Good job girl, I knew you were gooing to do well. Your post makes us remember all the things we take for granted.
GREAT POST!! I wish I cold just snap my fingers and get it all back to you ... I wish so much I could do that! I understand you won't let go your rage and wrath!
Your people are GREAT folks - and your country a GREAT country! The people will pull through and the country will be rebuilt again and more beautiful than before ... and your students will bug you and you nag about so many things again! It will take YEARS, yes - but it WILL happen!!
STAY SAFE - WE'RE WITH YOU ALL THE WAY!!
Very eloquent.
Hold onto these thoughts. The loss of peace and freedom is as though you are grieving. Like a lost friend that you wish you could spend time with again, or be able to say all those thing that you didn't.
You humanity and love for peace and freedom is very touching.
Thank you.
That was one of the most touchy ones i ve ever read
i wasn't a blog reader actually be4 the war but now i check on the lebanese blogger forum daily ever since the war started to see how u ppl r hanging on and how we could help
keep it up it's beautiful and one thing i know 4 sure ,once this is all over ill be checking the bright peaceful blogs of he lebnon with no war we miss it just as much as u do
@ Anonymous
Thanks my friend :) War teaches us many lessons..harshly though..
@ i love munich
I'm glad to read a comment from you :) I read your comments to my friend Ahmad. I appreciate your feelings. Our people will go on. Our country will be rebuilt. We shall RISE!
@ emory
Peace, Freedom and Humanity.. My new life will mainly be built and based on these ideals..
Thanks for your comment, I appreciate it :)
@ egypta
Our blogs will be cheerful again.. No worries.. I'm glad you liked my blog.. That inspires me to keep writing and expressing myself as a Lebanese girl living amid a war.
Peace :)
We all miss our lives, especially that it was disrupted over one night.
You read my mind, you wrote our feelings. Thank you.
this post was very beautifull and make me think in all the things we take for granted! I hope that you and your country and all the people in the world have the peace that always need to live every day. Here, in Argentina, there are lots of people thinking about the civilians that dies every day in this madness that is this stupid war. From here, a great hug and still fighting with ideas, no with bombs!
Leandro
My sincerest and best wishes extend to the Lebanese people. Remember, if you need a change of scenery for awhile my offer still stands...
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